in the past 3 days i've had dinners with my old friends consecutively; wednesday with yati and sharini at swensens, yesterday with poppy, ranitha and thuts at pizza and and today with primary school friends at fish and co.



aside from the fantastic food, the dinners were just the thing i needed. a break.



i had piles of things to do and so much work to worry about but i told myself, to hell with all of that. just ahve a break zu. and it was really nice. especially today, sitting at starbucks chatting with my primary school friends about our kental days in school when we were young and had no care in the world whatsoever. we were recalling times when we were so into mtv and boybands and we used to all gather at my house to have dance and singing practices. we would sit around and quiz each other on the latest music and celebrity gossip and we would come up with the cheesiest dance steps which we thought so cool at that time to be performed in front of our friends in school. we must have been the subject of much gossip and entertainment for our acquaintances in school but none of us cared about what people thought of us. we were really in our own little world and it didnt even cross our minds to stop and think about what others might think about us. most importantly, we were happy and carefree.



today, 10 years down the road, i sit here and i realise a lot of things i do is influenced by the people around me. i stop and think a million times of how people might view me before i attempt to do something. it's extremely sad that our actions are restricted by societal perception and we impose such restrictions on ourselves to ensure that we fit in and not sidelined by society. in this moment, when i feel like i carry the weight of at least half the world on my shoulder that i wish my life could go on rewind and i would go back 10 years and live in that hapy carefree moment forever.



but oh well. responsibilities responsibilities. running away is not going to solve anything.