quite an eventful weekend i had.

stayed at my granny's house on friday. i love spending time there coz my aunt has a huge tv with a great hi-fi set and many many dvds to watch and cable with over a hundred channels and a comfy sofa. and if i'm bored of watching tv i can always use the comp. and the fridge is full of yummay food. and i get to play with gorgeous fat cats. i dont know how cats can grow to be that fat. seriously. one of my aunt's cats can barely walk coz he's so darn fat. isnt that animal abuse? i mean you're feeding the cat to the point you're hindering it's ability to walk properly and jump like normal healthy cats can.

went to support my bro at his school band performance and then made my way to meet samir and we went to support the j1s at the awalah dondang pementasan. it was better than expected actually. very funny and the primary school kids involved were just sooo adorable! i like the idea of many schools collaborating and it wasnt just individual school performances. all their work and effort was woven into one lengthy act which turned out to be quite not bad at all. thumbs up to the j1s for their effort. the girls really looked like guys on stage though. quite scary.

oh those of you who are planning to watch 'lady in the water'...dont. it was quite nonsensical. if you enjoy bedtime stories then maybe you'd like it but even then, not worth your money. thank god it was my aunt who paid for my ticket or else i would have just cried.

debby's in town! after the movie yesterday i met up with fizza, fyda and fazli who were bringing our indonesian friend around town. oh my god i miss that girl and all the rest of the indon peeps, at least most of them anyway. they're such fun people and not to mention rich. haha. i miss sitting in demmy's big clean car, the luxury of having someone drive you around is something anyone can get used to. i'll never forget my experience at jakarta. saya pingin main ke jakarta lagi dong!!!

okay gotta get to work. sigh.

cabaret was entertaining. colourful and interesting to watch and i absolutely loved the opening of the 2nd half of the show where we could see the silhouettes of the actors making suggestive movements to portray what happens in the nightclub on the screen and how they played with the colourful lights during that scene...gorgeous. but the whole thing wasnt as WOW as i expected it to be somehow. but for $15 definitely worth it.

i really wana go for forbidden city. i really do. i wish the school would take us. im so sad i missed my chance at anderson. some rich soul out there...would you be kind enough to sponsor me? *flashes most charming smile possible*

aaaah well, back to the routine of school and work.

oh carbaray oh carbaray oh carbarrrrraaaaayyyy!

omg 'the dresser' is a must watch! went to 'the dresser' with the drama club on firday and it was FANTASTIC! i now worship the ground adrian pang walks on because he is such a wonderful and convincing actor. i am in awe really. the way he carried his character...wow. i mean i always knew or heard that he is a great actor but to watch him...he was so into it, from the tip of his hair to the tip of his toes he was the character himself and nobody else. BRILLIANT, ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT.

the other actors were good too but i was kinda disappointed in pam oei. maybe i'm wrong but that wasnt her best performance and i expected much better from an actress of such calibre as her. the lit cohort should have been taken to this play instead of cabaret because it would have been more useful to us seeing as how it's based on king lear. it was interesting to see how backstage life at the theatre is depicted, and hw a madman prepares himself to play a character that in actual fact is a reflection of himself. okay this probably is nonsense to you, i'm not very good at reviews and stuff so just go watch it because it's indescribable. you'll have to see it for yourself. ;)

i know i shouldnt but i'm slowly losing hope. i mean what do you do when you work reasonably hard and still get the same horrendous results? gp was a big disappointment. all my confidence in my ability to do languages has gone down the drain. c6 for french AO exam and now bare scraping through a pass for gp? my god how deluded i was thinking i was good in languages. and lets not talk about maths. i really know i'm not a maths person but not being able to pass it is just...it sucks big time.

i hate whining about results and study stress but i cant help it. it's frustrating. it's taking up so much of my energy. sigh but what to do? just gotta suck it all up and mug even harder. after this week i think i'll have to eradicate any form of social life i have for the sake of pulling my grades up. so looking forward to it.

i honestly am at a lost of what to do when i graduate from jc. i used to be positively sure that i would want to do comm studies in NTU but now i have my doubts. i would love to pursue a career in journalism but can i really do it? the competition is tough out there and you'd have to be the best of the best to see even the slightest light of success. i wish i could be more confident of myself and my capabilities but seriously, i dont feel like i have what it truly takes to excel in the field of journalism. so then what do i d? i thought of majoring in english lit at NUS, but is that really what i want to do? what's the job scope like for me with a lit degree? the most obvious career choice is becoming a teacher of course. but omg. i told myself a long time ago that i wouldnt become a teacher. but now it seems as if i'm moving towards that direction. not that it's bad becoming a teacher or anything but i always thought it was a dull mundane job that i didnt really want to go into. of course i could put colour into my teaching...but i dont know. everything in my head is a big confusing blur right now and i just wish i could decide what i want in life and stick to it, not to be faltered by anything or anybody.

somebody tell me what to do.

omg so the weekend was a BLAST. i'm so glad we went for that little holiday of ours. we had a barbeque, went swimming in our underwear, went cycling, played games, watched the world cup! my bitches, i love you all muchos!

speaking of the world cup...so italy, world champions! honestly i never would have thought. as much as i hated it, i thought germany will claim the title. but i am so so glad to have been proven wrong. i thought cannavaro was excellent. seeing him lift the cup, what can i say...italy truly deserved it. i'm still wondering what made zidane snap. he's the last person anyone would have thought to have done something as stupid as what he did. why do something like that to mark the end of your porfessional football career? i mean wouldnt an ideal 'ending with a bang' be to lift the freakin world cup? really i still cant believe he snapped. seeing him leave the pitch in tears just broke my heart but again...WHY?

followed my dad to the hospital today for some laser eye operation. apparently his eye was bleeding and something needed to be done soon coz he's diabetic so that's not good at all. sid just went for a major eye operation and so did my grandma. it got me thinking about what would happen if god forbid, i were to lose my eye sight? that scares the shit out of me really. i really cant imagine how it'd be like not to be able to see. what's life without the sight of all the beautiful things, all the beautiful people? i guess if i were born blind i wouldnt have known what i was missing so it wouldnt be so bad but i've lived 18 years of my life now living life through my eyes and if such a wonderful thing were to be taken away from i'd be devastated. but then again, it's all god's will and i have no right to argue or protest.

the notebook is such a beautiful love story. and sisterhood of the travelling pants, one of the most wonderful stories of love, friendship and family i have ever watched. sometimes a great movie doesnt have to have wonderful visual effects and what have you. all it has to do is touch your heart. god i've never cried watching any movie like i've cried watching these two. fantastic.

omg i've never felt so relieved in my entire life! i just had my sastera paper today and i declare exams unofficially over. really couldnt be bothered about P.C paper on thursday. seriously it is pure evil to make us write 5 essays in 3 hours. are you people in the education system mad?! how can you even think of putting us mere mortals through such torture! if no man ever wants to marry me because my fingers are too muscular i will totally blame it on the singapore education system.

i had a nice time with rani today. we met up after my paper and went to eat at suntec before buying ourselves a piece of secret recipe cake each and sitting outside the esplanade to enjoy our desert and whatever view there was. i love talking to rani. i can talk to her about anything and everything and i know she wont judge me and she'll be totally honest with me. i had a pleasant and peaceful day. i actually forgot i had tuition! was so shoecked when my tuition teacher msged me and asked whether i was on my way to the centre. OOPS!

i cant believe candice, rini, yati and i decided that we wanted to go to KL on saturday, and we almost did! well...they almost did. i of course was stupid enough to even think my parents would allow me togo overseas without them. my dad said, and i quote: 'are you crazy?'. oh well it was worth a try. but before that we actually called up all the budget airlines to see whether there was any immediate flights to KL and we even called up rich contacts and asked for help. you should have seen us. we were with candice's 2 sisters so there we were 6 girls frantically making calls to try and get us to KL that very day so that we could go to the kids' choice awards, coz candice's super cool sister could get all of us free passes! but our happiness was shortlived when we found out the only possible way for us to get to KL was by coach which was due to leave only at 10pm. crazy bunch of girls i tell you.

ok you might think i'm crazy but i'm really rooting for jay lim for singapore idol. he's not good-looking or anything but he's not bad and he's quite classy and he has a good voice! plus i think he's quite underrated. i hope he goes far. =D singapore idol sucks big time though. they should just stop holding it after this season because clearly those who audition have hardly any talent and those singaporeans who really can sing never ever want to take part in such loserish competition.

i'm going to watch superman returns tmrw yayy! apparently mr clarke kent is super hot and the movie's really good so yeah quite excited. ;)

okay off to bed. gotta wake up for world cup. forza italia! be prepared to eat your heart out germany.

so as we get closer and closer to the end of the world cup season the one thing etched on the minds of followers of this beautiful game is who will be the two teams fighting for the coveted title of world champions. france was so good against brazil last night hell i think they'll beat the hell out of portugal and become a finalist. i really think that germany has been super solid this season and i've been saying that they'll win it but i'm personally rooting for italy to kick some german ass and make it an italy france final like nani said. so exciting.

you know how in those hollywood movies set in american suburban homes they show kids getting excited over having peanut butter and jelly sandwich snacks? i've always wondered what peanut butter and jelly tasted like and i wonder why i havent tried to satisfy my curiosity earlier because it tastes really good. not mouth-watering delicious but good enough to put a smile on your face til the very last bite. yummay!

i have two papers more to go but i already am in a holiday mood. i dont want to study for sastera please dont make me! there's only one thing that's keeping me motivated and that is the thought that less than a week from now i'll be enjoying a well-deserved (i hope...) party with my lovely bitches (you know who you are...) =D

i miss fyda. babe call me or something you busy woman you.

okay off to watch some tv...AGAIN. i cant believe one can sit through so much trashy cable tv and still want to go back for more. addiction is a dangerous thing.