Sheer Elegance~

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

one week has passed and here i am again in the comp lab but this time i'm with jx. neither of us take econs so here we are enjoying the air-con and updating our blogs while the rest are in lecture. HA-HA!

i have no motivation for school. school sucks. my tutors are horrible. mrs gan and ms victor are, like i've mentioned a million times before, THE most sucky uninspiring lit teachers you can ever have. mr seah is extremely nice but i learn close to nothing in GP. cikgu ibrahim is great but sastera is always such a drag. the only lessons i enjoy are maths tutorials but the fact that no matter how much i study i cant pass maths doesnt really help. and it doesnt help that nanyang has no eye candy. i know. zu is so shallow. but really there has to be some sort of motivation to come to school, no matter how shallow it might be. yeah i look forward to see my friends but hey i can see them anytime i want, i dont have to wake up at 5.30 in the morning and travel all the way to serangoon to do that. i hate feeling like this when promos are like 2 months away. and everyone else is feeling the same way so nobody's really helping anybody. i think that's my problem. i tend to get really affected by ppl around me and their behaviour. i try hard not to but it has come to a point where i cant control it any longer. it's scary.

study study study.

nani seems to have something planned in september but she's not telling me. she's totally keeping me in suspense. eh makcik, what is it? tell me! i'm looking forward to whatever it is.

*sigh* bahas finals tonight. i'm going. yay.

i shall go and read harry potter book 6 now. reading makes me happy.

sheer elegance-

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

heya.

i'm in the computer lab right now with nadz, nadia and jx. nadz and nadia skipping econs lecture. tsk tsk tsk. *shakes head disapprovingly* thank god i dropped econs.

i'm bored.

everyone seems to have something to do except me. no wait...i have LOADS of work to do. hahaha. silly me. i forgot i'm such a lazy ass. i have to buck up soon if i want to get promoted. i dont want to get retained! must buy graphic calculator next year...no money!!!

drama exco elections today...FINALLY! with the pathetic number of J1s we have, there's not really much of a choice.

lalalalalala...hmmm...okay now i'm really bored...let's see...

unfinished work:
- maths ttrls 9, 10 and 11
- 2 'seorang tua di kaki gunung' essays
- GPP
- french oral presentation

and i act as if i'm sooo free like that.

*sighs*

okay off to PW lecture...so exciting! wheee!!!

fare thee well.

sheer elegance-

Friday, July 15, 2005

heya.

got back most of my mid-yr papers. obviously i did badly la so what's new right? haish. i'm very disappointed with my results and i'm quite pissed off too. my maths tutor left a comment on my paper which said "more effort needed!" like wtf lah. i spent most of my june holidays doing maths. i practically didnt study for anything else! i know i flunked and i guess i do need to do something drastic to pull up my grades but dont be thinking that i'm a lazy ass who totally didnt study at all coz i fucking did okay. and mrs gan is another one. i got back her paper and you know what comment she left on my paper? "sloppy and half-hearted. zuhara, i expected more eloquence and insight from you." FUCK! hello for your info mrs gan i did your question first okay! what the hell do you mean by sloppy and half-hearted??? yah okay my response sucked, just say it! but dont say that i didnt put in effort coz i did! obviously she flunked me. i dont know how i did for ms victor's paper. i was actually expected that i'd pass mrs gan's paper and flunk victor's one so basically i'm screwed for lit. i know it's only the mid-yrs...but still, try telling my parents that. ugh!

and i've just been told that cikgu hates us, my batch. apparently she's not happy with our attitude and all that kind of crap. great, just great.

i'm in no mood to talk about anything else.

later.

sheer elegance-

Sunday, July 10, 2005

heya.

we had our MLCS farewell party yesterday. i have to say i was quite disappointed with the response. only 5 out of like what, 20 plus seniors turned up, fizza, fyda, fazli, ruzanna and liyana. even then, ruzanna and liyana left very early so in the end it was left with the 3 seniors and our current ex-co, 12 out of what was supposed to be 30 ppl!

BUT i had quite a lot of fun and i hope everyone else did too.

the day started off with me going to causeway point to do a dang last minute shopping for a present for fizza. i totally didnt know what to get her, she has quite expensive tastes and frankly i'm lacking in the moolahs. in the end i got her a nice smelling moisturiser from the natural source which turned out to be quite a nice gift and she liked it so yay! after that made my way to pasir ris where i was supposed to meet my ex-co members. we went to buy the bbq stuff. after which the 5 of us, me, rad, zak, fatein and meon managed to persuade this taxi driver to squeeze us all into his taxi and drive us to changi beach. we started cooking and stuff while waiting for more ppl to turn up. soon yati and suhaila found their way to our what turned out to be a very inaccessible bbq pit area, followed by that makcik sharini who was supposed to bring the important stuff that we needed. nadia came a while later. by the time the seniors came it was almost 7. they were very tired and frustrated from walking a long way trying to find the pit so we quickly served them food and drinks. haha. sorry ppl. we would have booked a pit at pasir ris or somewhere better but everywhere else was fully booked!

omg there were so many mondoks and lipases! if you were the area lst night and you heard screaming every now and then that would be us. haha. after eating we sat around telling each other lame jokes, and i mean really LAME. then some of us j1 girls went down to the beach with fazli where we carried out our favourite pastime, gossip! it was so comfy there at night, there was a nice breeze and the company was great. then the j3s turned up. we decided to invite them since so little ppl turned up. we didnt really talk much. juz stood there and smiled while some of them seemed to be thinking evil thoughts about us. =( they only stayed for a while coz it was getting late and there was no food left. after they left we started clearing up and got ready to leave. got a lift from nadia's sis to yck with zak and went straight home to my darling bed. =)

i think it was a good bonding session for all of us yesterday, bonding with the few seniors and also amongst the j1s ourselves. and also bonding with the mondoks as well...

so one event down, many more to go. hopefully we'll get more support from our members the next time round.

ok i better start on my homework now. i'll be so busy next week. oh but definitely looking forward to meeting up with nani and syaf and nadia and yati for a bitchfest! SYAF i miss youuuuuuu!!!

later.

sheer elegance-

Monday, July 04, 2005

heya.

so i went to bukit batok today with nani to get the epok-epok made famous by taufik batisah. they're quite delish. then we made our way to west mall where we did our usual window shopping coz we always lack the money to do some real shopping. *sighs* anyway before that while we were crossing the road to get to the bus stop, there was this old malay man on an old screwed up looking scooter with his wife riding at the back...he was making a u-turn where we were walking and we were sort of in his way but he was supposed to wait til we crossed coz the green man was still on...but the bloody pakcik screamed at us! he shouted "cepat jalan lah!" and sped past us! fuck him! who the hell does he think he is man! nani and i were so pissed with that bastard la! eeeee i felt like pushing him off his bloody scooter man! geramnye!

i realise that you never know who your real friends are. there are people out there who are quick to pass judgements without knowing the full story. maybe i'm one of those people. sometimes i feel like i'm quick to judge others. i judge based on what i hear from people and not from that person himself/herself. so i guess that makes me a bad person then. but why is it when you really care and you want to help, people tell you to mind your own business? and when you do mind your own business and something bad happens, people say you could have done something to prevent it but you didnt? what does it take to make everybody happy?

i wish i was an inanimate object, like a table or a chair or a cute little teddy bear. then i wouldnt have feelings and i wouldnt need to waste my time and energy caring about so many things. because really, it's physically, mentally and emotionally draining to care so much. and everything goes unappreciated in the end anyway. so why bother?

yeah zu, why bother?

sheer elegance-

Saturday, July 02, 2005

heya.

okay so mid-yrs are finally over. the only paper that was quite okay for me was sastera paper...even then i dont think i'll do well so you can juz imagine how the other papers were. so getting a big fat F for everything. oh well, nobody to blame but myself. it's time to stop making up stupid lame excuses for my failures.

saw mr yu at esplanade juz now! i didnt say hi to him lah...was too afraid to coz i got a bloody C5 for his physics!

hmmmm.....i have nothing much to say today...nothing interesting anyway...not that what i usually post on this blog is anything interesting but...aiyah whatever la.

sheer elegance-