today was a pleasant day. school ended at 11.15 coz there was no lit lesson. so i had nice hearty lunch with rani dearest, bambi and mulan. we had ljs then made our way to swensens for dessert: apple crumble and chocolate freckles peak! i have to say that apple crumble at swensens is probably one of the best dessert i have ever tasted in my entire life. it's truly heavenly. had a nice chat with the three sweethearts before heading home.

i enjoy lunch dates with these girlfriends of mine. it's so pleasant and we really sit down and appreciate the simple joys of life, like sharing ice-cream. and the things we talk about can be either mature and have got to do with life in general or downright silly. there's no bitching (not that much anyway...), just plain pouring your heart out and having so many nice things to say to each other and motivating each other. i get a nice warm feeling being around them and once in a while, the feeling is great especially when i want to get away from just anything and everything that's been boggling my mind or has been making me feel really stressed out. talking it out with your best friends is great but taking time to sit and forget for a moment and enjoy the simple things in life instead works better sometimes.

well i went for drama in the late afternoon and i have to admit i feel very very lost. not only do i not know the people aside from the old drama members i know, everyone else in the cast seems to know what to do except me. and i have the least lines amongst the main characters yet i seem to be the only one struggling with my lines and my acting as well. and it doesnt help that i have to cough every minute. this makes me sad. =(

i miss nani. i havent had a chat with her since the hectic gema period. i miss fyda too. both of them make me laugh a lot. let's meet up soon babes. we shall get high and forget about our worries for a while.

it's over...it's all finally over. the constant naggings, the late nights, the constant complaints, the constant hearing of how incompetent we were, the comparisons to the previous batch...all of it...OVER....

yet so are the good times...the thrill, the excitement of actually organising such a big event, meeting so many different people, the dances, the fun, the laughter...all that over too.

GPA...now simply a bittersweet memory to me.

thanks to those who helped out. the seniors who came back, GPA would not have been a success without your help, seriously. the backdrop would not have been up, duties would not have been filled, basically everything would have been more of a mess than it was without you.

to the j1s who were so extremely enthusiastic about the whole event. thanks so much for putting in so much effort in GPA. you've been so much more help than many of your senoir were so you guys deserve a pat on your backs for that. to the dance girls, or should i say putri adiwarna, you guys were great. hope you had fun coz ultimately that's what you you gotta do, just simply have fun. my emcees! you guys did great. sooo proud of you. =)

to my excos, or only those who actually did what they were expected and required to do, you guys did great. it's all over now, back to the agony of preparing for our As. love ya'all! muacks!

i had loads of fun managing the stage with yati and liyanah. coludnt have picked better helpers coz the two of them were great help. i think it was more of yati taking charge of the stage and i just ran around and gave nadia and syahman cues. haha. good job yati, and liyanah. thanks muchos.

and poor fazli, his name wasnt mentioned in the list of helpers on the programme sheet, when he did so much work. dont worry dude. your help is much appreciated and yeah i still owe you at treat soooo....jangan marah.... ;p

i'm too lazy to list everything that happened yesterday. all i know that it went by just like that and now life is going back to the bore that it was before.

no wait. i still have drama syf.

great. just when i thought i could take a nice long rest.

nothing ever seems to slow down for me.

i'm tired...

and i am pissed.

hey hey hey.

ok it's been a while since i last updated. nothing much has happened that's really that interesting, mugging, mugging, mugging...except for my night out clubbing last night! it was so totally awesome i had such a great time with fyda and fazli. i met fyda at PS starbucks to wait for her to finish work. after that we made our way to mohd sultan road where we met fazli who brought us to this pub, i missed the name but it was cool and subdued except for the few ppl who were drunk. fazli's cousin just got married that day so it was the after party kinda thing i guess. met morris who is so totally cool except for the things she made me do! but she's nice. her husband is a little weird though.

after pubbing we made our way to O-bar where i almost couldnt get in coz apparently i was still underaged (like so much for being legal at 18) but thank god fazli was there and his cousin managed to get us in. it was great at O-bar. loads of dancing and i met ida and brian spears who are so cool! brian is just crazy and ida is so hot and sexy and so looks totally young for her age! both of them took real good care of us. from O-bar we made our way to club momo with ida and brian. girls get in free after 3.30 but ended up fazli couldnt get in without his ic and door girl wouldnt let girls below 21 in. ida and brian didnt want to go without us but we told them it's ok. they made us wait for them til 5 and they'd bring us to bedroom at boat quay. while waiting for them, fyda and i were super super hungry coz we hadnt eaten so we roamed aorund looking for a 24-hr food outlet. we finally found 7-11 and bought some disgusting tasting cup noodle. the 3 of us were so bushed by them but it wasnt nice to ditch brian and ida so we just went to bedroom with them.

bedroom was kinda scary. there were so many drags and cikopek mat salleh. there was a disgusting ang moh couple behind fazli who should have just gotten a room instead of making fyda and i want to puke our lungs out. it seemed like forever before we finally left bedroom and said our goodbyes to our new friends. fyda fazli and i went to breakfast at macs after that before making our way home to get some much needed rest.

now back to reality. back to mugging. sadness. ='(

i am blessed to be surrounded by the bestest friends. you might think that it's ridiculous to have so many good friends but to me, each of them are special in their own way.

i have my best friend of five years, NANI iryanni binte tajuddin. honestly, when we went our separate ways in JC, i thought that we'd drift apart, like how i drifted apart from my primary school mates. i'm ashamed to admit it. i know you always say that will never happen but from the moment i knew we were headed for different colleges, i've been having that nagging fear. but now i realise i was just being ridiculous. meeting up with you on saturday made me realise how comfortable i feel with you, how i can talk so so much around you, how it feels like we've always been together even though we rarely meet. i can act like a total idiot with you and not be so self-concious. thinking now, i realise i never really appreciated you for being such motivation, such an inspiration, a constant comfort zone, my interactive diary, the list goes on. thank you.

then there's FAZLI. i never imagined i would have a guy best friend until you came along. i dont know, i guess i always didnt really feel comfortable around guys but you changed that. i remember when i first got to know you, you were known as 'the drama president' to me. never in my wildest dream would i have thought that we'd be best friends now. but i'm glad. you've really given me loads of motivation. i have you to thank for bringing my self-esteem higher from the nothingness it was before. same goes for me, talking to you these days is a great release from all the shit in life. i know that i can always depend on you for anything and everything somehow. and no uncertainty this time, i can see us being great friends for a long time to come because i've simply come to a point where i don't know what i'll do without you.

same goes for FYDA, i really don't know what i'll do without you. you've brought so much colour into my life. there's honestly never a dull moment without you. i know i can always turn to you when i'm down because somehow, with your lame jokes or your crazy antics, you'll always put a smile on my face. and it's not just fun and laughter either. talking out serious issues with you is great because no matter how minah-ish people think you are, you're smart and your opinions matter a lot to me. you're also always willing to accompany me whenever you're free and i just appreciate so much because i never like being alone. i'm never lonely with you around. have i told you lately that i love you?

to NADIA! always listening to me, i've dumped a lot of crap on you. but you're just great. i don't know what i'd do if i didnt have you in nanyang. you make me laugh, you make me think, you make me feel good about myself. i'm so extremely happy and excited for you because of your recent attachment. one thing i truly believe you deserve after your long agonising wait for a special someone.

SHARINI is the best bitching buddy one could ever have. school is practically hopelesss and useless if not for her. you're also such a mugger now and my driving source to do well for As. push me please!

then there's RANITHA. my special friend. i sometimes tell you what i dont tell my other friends simply because i feel like we're almost the same person, like you can understand me most because you simply feel the same way. i'm so grateful to have gotten to know you better and i honestly cherish the little moments we have together.


i dont know why, i just feel that i should mention these few people because i've become who i am now because of all of them and they hold a special place in my heart. and i dont think i can ever thank them enough.

i am blessed to be surrounded by the bestest friends. i love you guys.



why do i still feel a little empty?

i'm 18! i'm legal! whoooo!

but then again i feel so old. in no time i'll have a 2 at the front of my age. sigh...and nadia dont you dare start calling me kak zu or kak timah. i will SLAP you.

by the way thanks FYDA, FAZLI, NADIA and SHARINI for the birthday celebration yesterday. fyda and fazli treated me to lunch at sakura and then we met up with sharini and nadia to get my present. my pretty overpriced purple butterfly wallet which i absolutely adore and will guard it with my life so thanks muchos! now i can strike it off my wishlist like fyda says. then sharini and nadia left and fazli and i accompanied fyda for her bar test which ended up being like almost a 3 hr wait for fazli and i but it's ok fyda. thanks for just spending the day with me. and congrats on passing your bar test! whooo!

thanks for all the birtday wishes as well. =)

back to reality. back to mugging. off to library. =(