okay so i've finally found the urge and inspiration to resume blogging. it's been forever i know. to those who actually religiously drop by to see whether i've updated (WHY on earth???) sorry i've been MIA but so much has happened and i just cant put everything to words.
let's see...the turn to the new year came and went. since the end of As (major relief you cant possibly imagine...) i've been keeping myself busy with going out with friends and loved ones...and dance. despite the many occasions of feeling so down and demoralised, it wasnt a mistake joining PA. the camp was tiring but i enjoyed it. got to spend a whole four days with my favourite girl in the world, nani and yeah i got a head start in knowing the people who were going to be my mentors in dance for a long time to come. so didnt expect to be performing for chingay but here i am. and i couldnt be happier than to have nani, fazli and nab around for fun and company. the sit-downs with the seniors at imam are always nice but still pretty quiet on the newbies side but things will change with time i guess...yeah i'm doing the thing i love most with the people i love most. couldnt ask for more.
was lucky to land a teaching job for 2 months at admiralty pri. in fact i'm in school now making full use of my break haha. teaching has been okay. my p4s are blood-suckers and my p5s come in a close second but my p3s are mostly angels. handling these kids has been physically and emotionally draining and i know i've been complaining a lot about them but i guess at the end of the day i leave school a happy RICHER girl. haha. but seriously i'm going to miss all of them no matter how devilish they've been. meeting rani for weekly luches after school has been LOVE no surprise there she's always been a darling to me. hopefully after this stint i get calls from other schools because i honestly dont want to do anything else.
so yeah i've been filling my time with loads of things. never thought my life after As would be like this. i did imagine myself doing a lot of bumming around or just simply hanging out with friends every day, which does sound tempting but this is so much better than that.
i've been a relatively contented girl for the past few months...but there's always been this hanging feeling in me, and sometimes a deep sinking feeling at the pit of my stomach. maybe it's the uncertainty of how my future is going to turn out what with the suspense of waiting for the big RESULTS. but somehow i feel there's something else that's making me feel uneasy, and at times miserable. i think i know what it is. i just dont want to even consider the possibilty of it being true.
the ups and downs of being 18 and uncertain. i know it's a little late, but hello 2007.
