A level results tmrw. okay it doesnt affect me directly but two of my besties are getting back their results and i really dont know what to think. i'm really praying hard for fyda and fazli, and even zanna. insyallah they'll do well.

heck what the hell am i doing worrying about my friends when i myself am getting back my french ao results tmrw! what if i fail? i mean it wont really matter i guess coz it's a third language...but still! i did not just waste a whole 5 years studying the language to flunk this exam in the end...

oh btw congrats nani dearest! your acting debut on saturday went great! so proud to see you on stage although i was covering my eyes when you did your little dance number...hahaha...OOPS! you were wonderful darling. ;)

anyway i took early leave from school yesterday and went to woodlands library to study with nadia. didnt get a lot done but definitely got things done, more than if i had stayed in school so yayy. while we were at BK a man called me to his table and actually told me to tell this lady outside to zip up her pants! it must have been a really horrible sight coz he really looked like he couldnt stand it so i made nadia do it. poor lady. must be really embarrassing for her...but really! her fly was so OPEN! fazli joined us for lunch and we studied a bit more until sleepiness got the better of us so we decided to head home early.

my grandma has been watching this korean drama series on dvd and she's gotten me hooked on it. the irritating part is that she's watched it a few times and so everytime i sit down to watch some episodes with her she's telling me the whole story before i actually get to watch it for myself...i hate that! never ever do that to me people unless i ask you to. but i still love my nyai many many, coz she gives me money! hahahaha.

ooooh bell just rang. off to maths lecture. the joy.

oh my God!

we did it! we actually did it!

GPA saringan is finally over! all that hard work, all that staying back til late in school for dance and dikir practices, admin work til late at night, screaming and insults from cikgu, skipping classes and skipping school, all that we went through working towards the big day yesterday. there were a few problems here and there but ultimately the whole show was a success and now i can chill a little.i know we still have finals to prepare for and that will have to start now if i dont want the same problems for saringan to occur again but really, i feel a huge burden lifted off my shoulder.

and the whole event could not have happened without the following people:

my exco firstly, even though i've complained before that some of you are not doing your job but when we were put under pressure we managed to pull through together. sharini and yati, great job backstage. nadia you rocked sound and lighting, and the backdrop too. radhiah ticketing and marshaling went smoothly. fatein and samir great job in dikir and fatein, you did wonderfully in refreshments. not forgetting suhaila, you did an excellent job in putting dance together and doing hair and make-up for everyday. we were well together despite our differences and i'm sure we'lk rock finals.

my performers and emcees. you guys did fantastic and i'm sure you're proud of your own performance. thank you so much for commiting all that and energy, i know you guys were really tired from all the practices, especially during the last few days before the big day. you guys really put in your all, love you all for that.

to the seniors who came back to help, THANKS. really, you didnt have to but you did and you really made my job a whole lot more easier. special mention to fazli and mardi for coming back almost everyday to help with dance and dikir. you have no idea how much i appreciate it. i owe you a huge treat. thanks muchos!

special mention too to fahmy and hadi who are not nanyang students but still came to help us as well. you guys really were a big help. thank you so so much.

we'll be organising a picnic this saturday for all helpers, the exco's treat so look forward to that. thanks again all.

sigh...finals here we come.

what the fuck.

i know i might not be the best leader, the most organised, the most firm, the most practical, the most efficient...whatever. i know you don't like the way i work, the way my exco works. i know you hate us, i know you love your previous batch. but at least respect me enough not to go running back to them and complain and bitch about us. if you're calling them to come back and help i understand, i welcome that. hell i need as many people as i can get and i truly appreciate any help that they can offer me. but no. instead you express your lack of confidence in us, your dislike for us or the way we get things done, in the most insulting way. i might be a softie but i have pride too you know. it hurts. where the fuck do i put my face when i see the seniors? when they know very well how sucky you think we are...they might not think that way but still...can't you see how hard i'm working? yes you can. you said it yourself. the people who you always see around are basically the people who have to put up with your shit. you want to lash out at us? fine. you want to scream at us? fine. you want to call us names? fine. just spare me the shame you're causing me right now.

exco...let's have a nice long chat after saringan. for now, know your job, do it well. please. for your own sake.

i am a very happy girl today. even if tere is this pounding pain in my head that wont seem to go away.

i woke up today with a headache and decided to sleep for another 15mins before getting up for school but i slept all the way up til 7 plus. there goes my attendance for today. wanted to go to school in the afternoon but i was tired and my whole body was aching. then my mum told me she wasnt planning to cook anything today...GREAT. but it was as if they knew. i suddenly got a call from fazli asking me to go out for lunch so yay!

i met up with him and fyda at CP and we went for lunch at pizza hut...and dessert at swensens! omg i felt soooo bloated after that but i was a satisfied girl. yeah it was like a pre-valentine's day celebration i guess for pathetic ppl like the three of us who have no valentines this year (like i ever had one before...) but i think it was great so thanks fazli and fyda for the wonderful lunch date. love you guys muchos.

tmrw is gonna be a busy busy day. so not looking forward to it. sigh....a few more days zu. hang in there. hang in there.

there was fireworks at esplanade AGAIN today! this time though fyda fazli and i were at esplanade before it started so we got a magnificent view of the pretty pretty fireworks. what's up with the fireworks display week in week out anyway? not that i'm complaining but what the hell is it all for...

so dance practice today was yet again missing some people. it's a week to the performance and we havent had a full proper practice. great. SP was at esplanade practising for GPA as well...so funny. i think my friend saw me and told the rest and so they decided to move away where we couldnt see them. hahahahaha...so funny. i cant believe GPA is next week! aaaaaahhh!

thanks nadia for the testi.

and thanks fazli for the gift!

who needs boyfriends when you have such wonderful friends right? right.

i should have skipped school today. had free period in the morning today so i went straight to the malay room to catch up on some much needed sleep. i really slept, like REALLY...i didnt even hear the bell when it rang for maths lecture. there was only one thing that could wake me up ("NOWWW!"). nad both lit tutorials were cancelled so i ended up just having malay...which was a bore i'm surprised i actually could stay awake.

but the backdrop is finally done! stayed in school til 7 just to finish it. i think it looks gorgeous but i dont know how it'll look in lt4 when we put it up. i'm just praying for the best.

cikgu called me to ask izwan and sakinah how they did for Os. like wtf! how can i just call them up and ask them! i hardly know them, they'll probably think i'm some irritating busy bodied senior. but i am wondering how our j1s did. hope they all did great, the ones that i like anyway. omg i hamimi! hahahaha, i hope she stays coz then nadia su and i will have something to laugh about in school.

i have really fugly eye bags it is not funny. like as if i'm not ugly enough let's add some obvious dark circles shall we? ugh.

i need a nice long holiday....

I AM ABSOLUTELY POSITVELY EXHAUSTED.

dikir practice at marina park on saturday was fun. i feel bad for not doing anything. i was basically just there to watch them. poor mardi. i think she worked really hard and she was very tired and hungry at the end of it all. they still need A LOT of practice. but yay fahmy is coming today to teach the rebana sooo hopefully everything will fall into place soon, like really soon.

went to watch chingay after that with sharini and nadia. i wished i was part of it, it was al so beautiful! and we saw hazwan and dinie and cik osman all in colourful costumes dancing. sooo nice! i'm so joining PA after As and getting my ass into chingay next year.

maths lecture test tmrw. sooo not prepared. nothing new.

i'm sitting in the library now secretly spying on mr tong yee's gp lesson. they're watching a movie! my class could be there now. but noooo...we have some apek of a GP teacher. and now he must think i'm a delinquant or something coz i skipped tutorial this morning and SOMEBODY wasnt kind enough to cover up for her classmates and told him i was in school. whatever.

i think i know who my angel is...i think...

i feel the stress of GPA kicking in now...there's so much left to be done in the space of two weeks!and wow it so helps that finals is like during block test week.

and my parents are driving me crazy with their constant nagging! ok i know i'm supposed to be grateful that they give me the freedom i have now and all that but at this point it's not enough...i come home late most of the time because of dance practice...not because i suka-suka nak merayap...and anyway i'm turning 18 soon for heaven's sake...18! i'm so old and still...what? they want me to be like my brother, cooped up in his room all day in front of the comp, not socialising to the point that he names his possessions???? HE needs to get out more. and they're even more over-protective of him...he's turning 14 and they dont even trust to let him stay alone at home...and not only he suffers, now I have to baby-sit him at home...nightmare!!!! ugh! i love my parents and my bro but sometimes, i cant stand them. now i really cant stand them.

sigh...at least my angel made my day yesterday with the sweets and the tags here. whoever you are angel if you're reading this...thanks muchos...cant wait to find out who you are. now it's my turn to be a good angel and put a smile on my mortal's face, or any kind of expression on her face for that matter.

oh sharini should be jealous of me right now because gerald mok was on my bus this morning and now he's sitting beside me. hahahahahaha...he's not that hot what makcik....

ok off to maths lecture.

au revoir!