i officially have lunch buddies on mondays. i am happy. today mardi and i celebrated latiff's birthday over lunch by surprising him with a cute teeney weeney cake and of course, us being the top most uber fun girls in the world, latiff ended up looking like this:




LOL he might just kill me for posting this photo but whatever. loves it. and here's the adorable little mardianaaaaa!

i didnt take picture of mardi so i stole one from her friendster. lol. jangan marah mardi. next week i take a nice photo of you k.

here's to many more fun lunches together. =)

- i was chatting with my woman filzah about boyfriends and dating just now and i think both of us are in the same boat in a way. on the one hand i realise i should open myself up more and get to know more people but at the same time i am a little tired of people constantly reminding me that time's running out. and it's not just people asking me to find a boyfriend, it's friends everywhere suddenly getting attached and increasing the pressure. and of course there's that feeling of loneliness and yearning to know what it feels like that creeps up on me occasionally (more often than not) which makes everything worst. i try my best to keep my mind of thinking about things like this by keeping myself busy which i really am.

but honestly, it's not that i dont want to open up, i guess deep down inside there's that fear of getting hurt. i have a few weaknesses and one of them is being overly trusting and i truely am scared that i would get my heart broken in the end. and i'm not very strong at all. call me dumb but that's what holding me back, fear. and if i dont get over it one day it might be too late.