i had a whole long entry planned for yesterday...you know to sum up what ive done for the year like i do every end of year. but i realised, for this year, i just couldnt. not because there's nothing to talk about but because there's just too much to say and i wouldnt do justice to it no matter how long my entry might have been. it's just been a hell of a year for me. i did so many things that i am proud of and many that i would rather not have done. i got into teaching right from the beginning of the year and stuck to it til the end and look where i am now, i'm financially independent. i joined a professional dance group which has been my dream since i was still in primary school, and now, ive performed in close to 10 professional shows and even get paid for them. i got my A level results, applied for uni and managed to get in, and now, i'm well on my way to getting myself a degree. ive met so many people during the course of working, dancing and schooling and ive made wonderful friends, and perhaps some not so good ones, but who have all made a difference in my life in one way or another. i had some rough time with one of my bestest friends at the beginning of the year and i regret anything ive done that might have hurt her, but at the same time i'm glad it happened because it's taught me some valuable lessons about friendship, and ive come out a more matured person. i kind of fell in love this year as well and got my heart broken. it was a bittersweet experience, one that i would want to forget but also at the same time remember every moment of it for the rest of my life.

A lot of things happened to me this year, and as i was thinking this in my head i realised one thing, that it's all been about me. i did this, i did that. this happened to me and it's made me all depressed. oh i'm soproud of myself for having achieved that, yay for me. and while i've ben busy doing things for myself, i feel like ive neglected my family the most this year and feeling that they're of less importance than anything else. i know ive also neglected some friends. and i have also neglected God. ive basically been self-centred and i was only thinking about my own happiness. yes ive become more independent and made something of myself. but now it's time to be less selfish.

so, new year's resolution. abt a week ago i told a friend that my new year's resolution was to find a peace of mind, be happier and be more confident of myself. again, all me me me. but i am still sticking to those words, and try to fulfil them by putting others before myself this time, being a better daughter to my parents, being a better sister to my brother, being a better friend, and being closer to God. to be realistic, that's a lot to aim for and i'll consider myself lucky if i manage to fulfil half of it, but i'm going to try my best and hopefully next year i'll come out a better person.

2007 was a BLAST. but here's to a better year ahead.

happy new year y'all.