i dont really know what to think or feel already. everytime i find happiness something just comes in the way. the first time i admit was my own fault and doing, but this time it's something else, something that i cannot get involved in because it's not my business and because i dont have a history, i'm just the one getting in the way, the third party. all i can do is wait here anxiously hoping the end result will go in favour of me. but what if it doesnt...i wonder what they're saying abt me, if they're saying anything...

i havent danced in a while. maybe i should go and let lose. it'll be the only thing that'll keep me sane and give me peace of mind amidst all this confusion.