i am sitting in my room in the dark now while waiting for my parents to come home and settle the problem of this power shortage in my house. apparently the power got cut coz the PUB bill hasnt been paid. seriously, cutting our power without any notification? i am going to be melodramatic here and say that this is a violation of our rights! electricity is a necessity and to take it away coz we havent paid our bills AND without notifying us is just outrightly heartless. i mean it's not like we can run away from paying our bills, we're just delaying it coz not everyone is born with a silver spoon in their mouths you know, people do have problems. so anyway the first thing i did when i got home and realised i couldnt switch anything on was to call my mum and whined and complained. haha wow zu, very brave and commendable. now i know for sure that if i were to join survivor i will not make it...in fact i wouldnt even qualify to be a survivor contestant in the first place...the producers would probably take a look at my reaction to this situation and laugh.

on a sadder note, the mother of an old classmate of mine just passed away. my condolences to her and her family. i hope they'll cope and do fine. but wow, to lose a parent...i really need to wake up and appreciate my parents more coz it's no longer the age where i hear of friends losing their grandparents...friends are losing parents, and friends are getting married and having kids. i'm really no longer a kid anymore. it's sad if you think about it really. we're all growing up so fast, too fast. some of us have to deal with tragedies and situations before we're really even ready to face them. but really what's important is if we all have a good support system or another, whether it's friends or family. we need somebody to catch us when we fall. i think the worst feeling in the world is loneliness, feeling like there's nobody for you to turn to for a hug or a shoulder to cry on.

ah well. that's life. i'm grateful that i at least have a loving family and wonderful dependable friends. i hope none of them will leave me anytime soon.

okay i should probably go study for ms now. i really cannot wait for next wednesday...exams over and it'll be time to partaaayyyy...

"But as tough as wanting as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who dont know what they want." - Grey's Anatomy.