today there was Rewang 'Nak Tari practice at eunos cc with musicians and stuff. had to go in place of shasha but thankfully she turned up and spared me the embarrassment of making a fool out of myself. i've been deemed slow and i get what my problem is but i dont know how to correct it. when i dance i feel as if my reaction time is fine but it seems that people see otherwise. it's quite frustrating because i'm trying my best. cant seem to be particularly good at anything at all.
on a lighter note today proved to be quite a fun day. after practice at eunos cc we went to have dinner at a nearby shop called "Niakmath" which totally cracked me and asri up coz of the way i pronounced it..you know in the kind of thick arabic accent. i'm sucha retard sometimes. went on then to play bowling. we had a little competition between ourselves. i pitied the team i was in coz i so sucked!(told you i'm not good at anything...) seriously i was never this horrible when i went bowling before. not that i know exactly how to bowl a ball but i could at least manage to aim straight and not always longkang-ing. but abg anuar took the liberty of coaching me and i improved a little after that. kudos to abg ain, abg anuar and abg arif for being the highest scorers and leading our team to victory despite my unimpressive score!
managed to get a quick bite after that before cabbing home and so here i am now. honestly i think "procrastinator" should be my middle name coz i'm out every day til late at night doing mindless things actually while i know i have things to prepare for my classes next week. perhaps at the back of my mind i'm being complacent and thinking i can manage to teach a grp of P4s for five days without preparing much. i'll so be kicking myself in the butt if there were some smart ass in my class who'll ask me some random question that i would be unable to explain.
speaking of work, my money from acropolis has come in but my mum has taken more than half of it again to pay bills. not that i dont want to help or anything. i do want to help my parents cope with our financial situation but at the same time it's furstrating because it's a lot of money she's borrowing and she hasnt replaced a single cent yet. i mean the money i earn is not only for me to spend for myself but i wana save for my future plans to travel. i knw it sounds selfish but at the same time, aside from food at home i depend solely on myself finacially i dont ask a single cent from them anymore not to pay my bills not to top up my ez-link card not to buy anything. but i guess now is not the right time to be thinking about myself.
oh well i just hope things will get better soon.
