ooh cant wait for kak wir to bring victoria secrets splash back for me and those who oredered frm her. i cant believe they're only 10 bucks. i bought 3 bottles, me being a typical singaporean but i'm glad to knw i'm not that bad.

i've realised some things about myself. actly i've realised quite a long time ago but i'm only really admitting it now. i'm a big whiner. i complain abt a lot of things. i complain abt work, i complain abt dance, i complain abt my parents, i complain abt some of my friends, i complain abt complaining. and the people who have to put up with these petty complaints of mine are my poor friends namely fazli and nani, and sometimes rani and sharini. sorry guys if i annoy the shit out of you sometimes. it's a habit i'm comig to terms with now and i'm going to try to stop.

another thing is that i'm not independent. i hate being alone no matter where i am. for example now, i'm sitting alone in the staff room and i hate it, i need to be ard somebody, talk to somebody. i dnt like going anywhere alone and doing things alone. in fact i sometimes get nervous when i have to do things alone. this problem however i am slowly but surely correcting. i'm learning not to be sucha wuss now and do things on my own because i cant always have friends ard all the time to keep me company now that everyone is busy with their own lives. it's ironic though when my parents want to accompany me somewhere or offer to help me with something i'd refuse and would rather do it alone. i think with my parents i'm more of wanting to prove to them that i'm very capable of takig care of myself.

ah yes and one more thing is that i can never say no to somebody, be it a close friend or a new acquaintance. in other words, i'm a people pleaser. sometimes i dnt even like doing the things people ask me to do, or i dont have the time to do it, but i do it anyway. then i start complaining. i was watching pepper dennis on channel 5 just the other day and Kathy's desire to please people makes her just somebody's doormat. i dnt knw, i just dnt have the heart to say no. i need to toughen up. yes, i'm a big wuss. i need to shed all this self-conciousness and be bold enough to say no when the circumstances in which i'm in doesnt suit me doing favours for people. i dont want to be a doormat.