wow i cnt believe the concert is next friday. my techniques are like far frm perfect it's making me rather nervous. it's like when i was still just learning the steps i secretly wished i'd be chosen to dance in at least 1 item but now that i'm dancing i feel like i shouldnt be coz i'm just spoiling the image of era. maybe i'm being too self-concious or paranoid but everytime i step into pa i wonder what the seniors, namely the girls, are thinking about me...i imagine thoughts like "does she really think she can dance?" or "omg i cant believe we have to put up with this kinda shit..." going through their minds. which i guess shouldnt be put against them coz i mean it is their concert and they'd want it to be perfect and flawless which is frankly far frm what the juniors, or rather i am giving them.

sighs...oh well i guess i shouldnt be complaining right. i've been given this opportunity i have to at least try my best and give my 110%.

work has been great. the best thing abt it now is that i work lesser hrs and i still earn almost the same every month if i were to do relief teaching. i was hoping to get more assignments frm acropolis but i'm quite happy with just teaching at bukit timah at the moment coz frankly...kids are cute but dealing with them too often will shorten my lifespan. i went to relief a drama cls at st.andrew's junior today and the kids are soooo cute! omg they are such smartie pants...one boy was so blatant in telling "miss zee it's getting boring. we should play a game." like who's the teacher here? haha but they are such darlings. as energetic as they were i had a less difficult time handling them as compared to my bukit timah kids even though they're all boys. i have 2 tuition jobs, or rather 3 if i consider the 2 siblings as 2 separate jobs. and i'm going to relief at admiralty (again...) for the next 2 weeks so i foresee a sizable increase in my monthly income for the next few months to come. YAYY for having a job. :D

i just realised my past few entries have mostly been about work and dance. a thousand apologies to friends who come by to read and find it sucha bore but yeah...my life has been pretty much work and dance lately. i hardly even have time for family anymore. honestly i miss my dad a lot. even though we live under the same roof it's like i havent seen him in the longest time, coz he leaves for work before i'm up and he'll be sleeping before i'm back home. my parents dnt really say much abt our problems they try to put up a positive front and go about life as if nothing is tying them down but yeah i knw what's going on and it worries me. i guess there's nothing much i can do abt it except help my mum in anyway i can in terms of housework now that cici is not around anymore (i miss her tons!), not that it's any easy considering i really think my mum suffers frm OCD and she's impossible to please! i think very soon i have to contribute financially. or perhaps take up the responsibility of saving up for my future education so at elast that's one less burden they have to carry on their shoulders.

on a lighter note...i miss poppy! it's like i suddenly dnt receive that many testimonials and comments on friendster anymore(pathetic yes...) and it's so quiet and uneventful without her...poppy wherever you are i hope you're well and having the time of your life. hope to see you back soon and dnt forget to bring home hot aussies! :D