oh my god the pressure of A levels is boring down on me and i feel so suffocated. people seem to think i've lost all hope in passing maths, including myself. i wish i could just fall into a dreamless sleep for a very long time and wake up only when november ends. i wonder how others can do it, can be so calm and sure of themselves, and produce the results effortlessly.

less talk more action zu.

was watching oprah just now and a family who lost the father to the 9/11 attacks was featured. i really have the fullest respect for people with problems who go up there on national television to talk about it. they voluntarily expose themselves to the world with the intention of seeking help from oprah or to share with the world what they've been through and how others can learn from their situation. especially for those who havent fully dealt with their emotions, going on the show might open up old wounds and they might have to explore new feelings that they never thought they had, exposing their vulnerability and their weaknesses to everyone. i used to think that these people were just hungry for attention but oprah doesnt just call up any tom, dick or harry to feature in her show. these are people with real problems and real emotions, and have a real need to be helped. and for them to go on tv and talk it out and lay their hearts out on the table so that they can try and figure out a way to overcome their obstacles or to dig up old painful memories to share with other people shows that unlike the rest of us, these people take their problems head on, they admit the fact that they have these weaknesses and are not afraid to seek help or solace. i guess ultimately the people who are most honest to themselves come out the happiest and the most fulfilled.