i am blessed to be surrounded by the bestest friends. you might think that it's ridiculous to have so many good friends but to me, each of them are special in their own way.

i have my best friend of five years, NANI iryanni binte tajuddin. honestly, when we went our separate ways in JC, i thought that we'd drift apart, like how i drifted apart from my primary school mates. i'm ashamed to admit it. i know you always say that will never happen but from the moment i knew we were headed for different colleges, i've been having that nagging fear. but now i realise i was just being ridiculous. meeting up with you on saturday made me realise how comfortable i feel with you, how i can talk so so much around you, how it feels like we've always been together even though we rarely meet. i can act like a total idiot with you and not be so self-concious. thinking now, i realise i never really appreciated you for being such motivation, such an inspiration, a constant comfort zone, my interactive diary, the list goes on. thank you.

then there's FAZLI. i never imagined i would have a guy best friend until you came along. i dont know, i guess i always didnt really feel comfortable around guys but you changed that. i remember when i first got to know you, you were known as 'the drama president' to me. never in my wildest dream would i have thought that we'd be best friends now. but i'm glad. you've really given me loads of motivation. i have you to thank for bringing my self-esteem higher from the nothingness it was before. same goes for me, talking to you these days is a great release from all the shit in life. i know that i can always depend on you for anything and everything somehow. and no uncertainty this time, i can see us being great friends for a long time to come because i've simply come to a point where i don't know what i'll do without you.

same goes for FYDA, i really don't know what i'll do without you. you've brought so much colour into my life. there's honestly never a dull moment without you. i know i can always turn to you when i'm down because somehow, with your lame jokes or your crazy antics, you'll always put a smile on my face. and it's not just fun and laughter either. talking out serious issues with you is great because no matter how minah-ish people think you are, you're smart and your opinions matter a lot to me. you're also always willing to accompany me whenever you're free and i just appreciate so much because i never like being alone. i'm never lonely with you around. have i told you lately that i love you?

to NADIA! always listening to me, i've dumped a lot of crap on you. but you're just great. i don't know what i'd do if i didnt have you in nanyang. you make me laugh, you make me think, you make me feel good about myself. i'm so extremely happy and excited for you because of your recent attachment. one thing i truly believe you deserve after your long agonising wait for a special someone.

SHARINI is the best bitching buddy one could ever have. school is practically hopelesss and useless if not for her. you're also such a mugger now and my driving source to do well for As. push me please!

then there's RANITHA. my special friend. i sometimes tell you what i dont tell my other friends simply because i feel like we're almost the same person, like you can understand me most because you simply feel the same way. i'm so grateful to have gotten to know you better and i honestly cherish the little moments we have together.


i dont know why, i just feel that i should mention these few people because i've become who i am now because of all of them and they hold a special place in my heart. and i dont think i can ever thank them enough.

i am blessed to be surrounded by the bestest friends. i love you guys.



why do i still feel a little empty?