what the fuck.

i know i might not be the best leader, the most organised, the most firm, the most practical, the most efficient...whatever. i know you don't like the way i work, the way my exco works. i know you hate us, i know you love your previous batch. but at least respect me enough not to go running back to them and complain and bitch about us. if you're calling them to come back and help i understand, i welcome that. hell i need as many people as i can get and i truly appreciate any help that they can offer me. but no. instead you express your lack of confidence in us, your dislike for us or the way we get things done, in the most insulting way. i might be a softie but i have pride too you know. it hurts. where the fuck do i put my face when i see the seniors? when they know very well how sucky you think we are...they might not think that way but still...can't you see how hard i'm working? yes you can. you said it yourself. the people who you always see around are basically the people who have to put up with your shit. you want to lash out at us? fine. you want to scream at us? fine. you want to call us names? fine. just spare me the shame you're causing me right now.

exco...let's have a nice long chat after saringan. for now, know your job, do it well. please. for your own sake.