Sheer Elegance~

Monday, July 04, 2005

heya.

so i went to bukit batok today with nani to get the epok-epok made famous by taufik batisah. they're quite delish. then we made our way to west mall where we did our usual window shopping coz we always lack the money to do some real shopping. *sighs* anyway before that while we were crossing the road to get to the bus stop, there was this old malay man on an old screwed up looking scooter with his wife riding at the back...he was making a u-turn where we were walking and we were sort of in his way but he was supposed to wait til we crossed coz the green man was still on...but the bloody pakcik screamed at us! he shouted "cepat jalan lah!" and sped past us! fuck him! who the hell does he think he is man! nani and i were so pissed with that bastard la! eeeee i felt like pushing him off his bloody scooter man! geramnye!

i realise that you never know who your real friends are. there are people out there who are quick to pass judgements without knowing the full story. maybe i'm one of those people. sometimes i feel like i'm quick to judge others. i judge based on what i hear from people and not from that person himself/herself. so i guess that makes me a bad person then. but why is it when you really care and you want to help, people tell you to mind your own business? and when you do mind your own business and something bad happens, people say you could have done something to prevent it but you didnt? what does it take to make everybody happy?

i wish i was an inanimate object, like a table or a chair or a cute little teddy bear. then i wouldnt have feelings and i wouldnt need to waste my time and energy caring about so many things. because really, it's physically, mentally and emotionally draining to care so much. and everything goes unappreciated in the end anyway. so why bother?

yeah zu, why bother?

sheer elegance-